Wednesday, October 17, 2012


As this year finishes out its last stretch, I am spending a lot of my time trying to make life decisions about work and retirement. I am fortunate to have many options to choose from and believe me I have wrestled with them during the wee hours of the morning, twisting them, turning them, holding them up to the light, and examining them under the calculator. In my mind I have juggled and computed numbers until dawn’s early light.


The decisions I make today may change in six months because the ones I made six months ago have. I don’t admonish myself for my indecision but instead look at it like a woman in the dressing room, trying on clothes. I’ve donned the coveralls of work and although they are very comfortable and my pockets are full, if I wear them, I have little time to dress up in the gowns of leisure. I have tried on casual-but-dressy, the Dockers, and lounged in the coziness of sweats. Not sure what fits me best, I have settled on a varied wardrobe for now. Swimming up stream is slow and sometimes futile if the current is strong. I'll go with the flow and enjoy the scenery.


A grooming smock for work, comfy sweats for writing, jeans and t-shirt for traveling, and a couple dressy tops for seminars, book signings and workshops. What can I say? I came up in the sixties and am unable to kick the philosophy that I can do it all. The sky's the limit.

"That which you manifest is before you." A quote from Enzo, the dog in the book, THE ART OF RACING IN THE RAIN.
I will enjoy my  life and remember that as I struggle with the verdicts in life, that moment of absolute certainty never comes.I will make the best decision I can and then let it go.



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